Week 10 The Challenge I created

In Oprah’s Lifeclass where she interviews Maya Angelou, the author and teacher answers one of Oprah’s questions with the words “when you know better, you do better.” These simple words I have always heard as a child but this week I threw those words out the window and had a major setback. It is totally amazing that I allowed myself to be caught up in a food situation and I have always been one to show unbelievable restraint as it relates to food intake.
It was three days before Thanksgiving and I chose to eat cake not one but 2 cupcakes, not a problem for most but my body told me years ago it did not appreciate refined sugar and I believed my body. I even consumed two slices of bread the weekend prior. I am still not sure why I did it, guess I wanted to test myself. The test proved disastrous and my body said hello infection. This time it was even worse than I have ever known the reaction to be. It was at this time that I had to say I know better. This simple wrongdoing affected my meditation and my ability to focus. My head felt clogged as in when an individual has a cold. Was there an underlying reason for eating the cake and bread? Yes I had a challenge and rather than working it out I allowed my old blueprint to step in, forgetting the lesson of cause and effect. Thank goodness I am in MKMMA where we are replacing the old blueprint. The lesson could also be called disobedience as I am aware of what I can tolerate and went against the grain of what is best for my body.
Have you ever felt that you have made ten steps forward? And only by your own actions/wrongdoing you were now five steps behind. Why five steps behind? I had so much pain in my body that I could not stay alert at night to complete my readings. My meditations proved useless as I could not focus. Yes, I did force myself to read twice per day but I did not feel the difference like I usually do. At the end of this week I believe I am now at week 2 in MKMMA. Did I step back five steps or was it 8 steps. Can I move forward at this point? Yes, because I can do what I will to do and I will persist until I succeed.
A few days ago notwithstanding I had completed reading Scroll II over 90 times. (Scroll II, Og Mandino’s The Greatest Salesman in the World), where he states “For when I do I will zealously inspect all things which enter my body, my mind, my soul and my heart. Never will I overindulge the requests of my flesh; rather I will cherish my body with cleanliness and moderation.
Could it be that I read but it did not get into my subconscious? What is moderation? Webster defines moderation as neither too much nor too little. Did I inspect everything that went into my body that week whether through my mind, my soul and my body? May I add that what in some people’s opinion maybe too little for some of us could be dangerous for others. Yes, some eat bread every day and have no reaction; some eat cake and have no reaction but some foods are poisonous for some. It is clear that we are each different and must rely on the God within to direct us in all areas of our lives.
In closing I recognize that the setback was my doing and I must learn from the mistake, not beat up on myself yet understand that it could have been worse health wise therefore I must not repeat that lesson. I now know better and therefore must do better. I must allow Scroll II to seep into my being and then I can say the words of Scroll III, I will persist until I succeed.

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2 thoughts on “Week 10 The Challenge I created

  1. We don’t always get the lessons being taught the first time around. Sometimes there is a need to repeat. But twice is enough!. Blessings and good wishes that you may continue to go forward and upward always!

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